My Poems

[<~Darkshadow~>]

Ya....here are some of my poems that I have written recently...as you know I am a little 'suicidal' at times....so ya....here r some poems I wrote.

[CENTER][B]Broken Trust[/B]

Friends are gone, left you to rust,
Broken heart, broken trust.
God is gone, far away,
Your all that's left, all that stays.
Fear is rising, endless death.
Reality is fading, Pain is Rising.
Your face contorting, Inner tearing,
Death surrounds you, entrapment,
Escape routes closing, abandonment.
Tired of fighting, ready for dying.
Gun in hand, bullet in barrel.
Nothing held back,

Life is fading... [/CENTER]

[CENTER][B]Victim[/B]

Holding on is harder that it seems.
Making me feel so weak.
Will there be anything left of myself.
In your eyes.
I've been tormented, beaten down.
But your the first to make me a victim.

Made to feel useless.
Made to doubt myself.
Made to be a victim.

Does making me feel pathetic ease your pain.
Coming home so cold.
I'm so damn afraid.
Not of what has happened in the past.
But what will happen next.
And go insane.

Made to feel useless.
Made to doubt myself.
Made to be a victim. [/CENTER]

[CENTER]This next one is kinda embarrassing but I'll post it anyway...[/CENTER]

[CENTER][B]I Wish You Were Mine[/B]

Sitting around with nothing to do,
Thinking of how much I want to be with you.
The feelings I have, I don't always show.
But now I'm telling you---I want you to know.

We've been through it all.
Good times and bad.
I'm not always happy, you do make me sad.
You sometimes act as if you don't care...
But this hardly happens, it's almost rare...

We're not together, I wish we were.
We're not together, I wish this didn't hurt.
He seems to be better
In everything and more...
I don't even know
What I'm hanging around for...

You hurt my feelings and made me cry.
But I don't know why I continue to try.
I guess I just love you!
And get carried away
I wish you were mine to have everyday.

But instead you just ignore me...
You don't notice me at all...
Everynight when I try to sleep...
I sob and I bawl...

If only you could understand
How it feels to be like this...
Just think about our past...
We need to reminisce...

We're not together, I wish we were.
We're not together, I wish this didn't hurt.
He seems to be better
In everything and more...
I don't even know
What I'm hanging around for... [/CENTER]

[B][CENTER]That's it for now...please post your C&C's....thx![/CENTER][/B]

[<~Darkshadow~>]

[CENTER]Dying Inside

You say you know me
You say it was the little things
That put me over the edge
The little things made me
do what i did.
When you really have no idea
You never even bothered to ask
You just assumed
Never really cared.
If you knew the half
of what im going thru
Maybe then you would understand
Im not who i seem to be
You only see what i want u to see
You dont see all the pain,
all the hurt
all the crying inside
Truth is,
Inside, im dying
if not already dead. [/CENTER]

[CENTER]Insanity

Sadness is coming back and I feel myself all alone,
They said this wouldn’t last forever, they said I would be ok,
But my sanity is withering,
And this night is turning to day.

They said I would never have to come back and that I would turn out alright,
The pillowed walls are calling me again,
They want me to come beat them down,
I don’t want to go back there anymore… please help me pick myself up the ground…

My sanity is losing and it’s fading away,
I feel myself being buried in my self-dug grave,
I feel them coming closer… someone must have told…
They’re coming to take me away again, nothing to grab or hold…

I open my eyes and it seems like they’ve been closed forever,
I open my eyes into a pillowed walled room,
But am I lost inside insanity,
Or only in my mind’s tomb? [/CENTER]

[CENTER]Scars of Sorrow

sorrow slapped me in the face
and now that it has my attention
it wont let me be

my soul cries crimson blood
its been kissed by my deathly blade

they say the pen is mightier then the sword
im not so sure anymore

despair haunts me
a punishment for being happy

im ashamed
tonight it hits hard
i hate who i am
-who i've been

all the scars on my body are nothing compared to the scars my soul holds
the pian i've felt is unbelievable
i'd rather feel the wounds

if these are the best years of my life
whut the **** do i have to look foward to [/CENTER]

[<~Darkshadow~>]

Does nobody come to this part of the forum? lol

Anyway....heres some more....

[CENTER]Heart or Brain

Is it in my chest or in my head
is there hope or are we dead?
Is it over are you giving up
Am I looking at an empty cup

Is it in my heart or in my brain
Am I in love or am I insane?
I’ll suffer a thousand cuts
To win you back. I must be nuts

Is it in my body or in my skull
I’ll do anything to make us whole
again. Don’t pretend like you don’t
Love me. Id kill for you, he won’t

Don’t pretend that you don’t care
All I know Is I need you there



Pain

I cut myself and watch me bleed
The blood trickles down my wrist.
I take a lighter and burn the skin
Listening to it hiss.
I cut myself once again
And savor all the pain.
I wipe away the crimson tears
Have I gone insane?
I cry blood for death is near
Yelling, screaming, running in fear.
Death comes nearer knife in hand
Reigning supreme in this forgotten land.
Weapon raised high
We all must die. [/CENTER]

[Nitrous]

That was the first time I have sat and read a thread and all the posts to the end in all the time that I have been at c/d.

The reason. I could not stop reading they were so good and they almost braught a tear to my eye I feel so weak.

[<~Darkshadow~>]

thx.........I write them when I'm in my depressed state.....

[Laguna Loire]

Good. Very good. Very very good. And so on. Lol. I could never write anything like that. If I ever manage to think of something like that it would probably take me 3 hours or something.

[Hylian Swordsman]

Man, you make great poems!!! WOW! that must have been a lot of hard work!
But, why write depressing stuff while your depressed? Why not happy stuff?

[Laguna Loire]

Isn't that self-explanitory? When you're depressed, you tend to try and bring other people down with you. Therefore, Omnicide sends his depression through his poems...Sort of.

[Drakur_Redragon]

Actually, poetry is a release of the emotions bottled within. When one is depressed, writings will contain the emotion released. I know I sound a little *ahem* off my rocker, but I know from experience. I am also a poet.

The stuff written above is by far some of the best I have ever read. It contains raw emotion that almost forces people to sit back and think for a while...and people don't do enough of that.

My own stuff probably will not appear here; I don't truly appreciate my own work.

[<~Darkshadow~>]

I just simply write what I am feeling.

[Killirbob.Exe]

They are very good omnicide i read all of them and i think that you are a great poet depressed or not

[<~Darkshadow~>]

Finally, some more....I have also started posting some of my work on DarkPoetry.com

Within My Skin

I don’t think I can take it any longer
The pain inside is getting stronger
Building up more and more
Trying to find that opening door
Holding on with all my might
Staying up there with a fight
Hoping this will not last
Thinking it might end up in the past
Trying to find the right person to tell
Before I go crazy, and begin to yell
Getting more confused by the day
Wishing it all would go away
All I’ve been doing is holding it in
But it keeps getting deeper, within my skin




I slip once more……

Am I still holding on?
No longer can I tell,
I've been hanging onto this mountain so long,
I'm not even sure if yet I fell.

What is there to hold on to?
When nothing ever seems right,
I've lived my life in wonder,
But mostly in fright.

Reality is falling away,
This edge I cannot bare,
I'm starting to lose my grip,
As my fingernails begin to tear.

I'm screaming and yelling for someone to help,
But no one even knows I'm alive,
So should I let go and leave myself to fall?
Or should I hold on until I die?

Still hanging on, I try to get up,
I slip and fall to the edge another time,
I try and try,
The edge to hold on is too hard to find.

Must I hang on for others?
Or should I let go to be free,
These questions keep coming,
Yet Im still lost in misery...









If Only…..

If you only knew..
That when I look at you
Time elapse..
Even for a brief moment,
I get lost within the deep void
Of your eyes,
Trying to succumb the spell
you have put me under,
Yet every step closer,
I take towards you
Is one step closer to the edge..
A simple step closer to oblivion,
And soon I will hit bottom,
Falling, Shattering into a million
Of forgotten pieces..

If only you knew..
What you mean to me,
The moments that are so priceless,
I would stop the world,
Only to relive such passion..

If only you knew..
How much it means
When you smile..
Such beauty..
I could stare hours upon hours
Deep within your soul...

If only you knew..
But I ceased to exist,
An unnoticed being,
Like a shadow along the wall,
Invisible to all..

If only you knew..
Our love would be eternal,
Fall deep within love's Void..
If only you knew..
All of these thing's..
But you will never be told,
As I drift further and further away..
I shall never be whole..
If only you knew..
That I love you













Stay here with me…

Don't fret precious I'm here, step away from the window and…
Go back to sleep
Lay your head down child
I won't let the terror of this come

Counting bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Pay no mind to the rebel
Pay no mind to the rebel

Head down, go to sleep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Pay no mind what other voices say
They don't care about you, like I do,
Safe from pain and truth and choice and other poisoned devils,
See, they don't give a **** about you, like I do..

Just stay with me, safe in ignorance,
Go back to sleep
Lay your head down child
I won't let the terror of this come
Count the bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Pay no mind to the rebel
Pay no mind to the rebel

Head down, go to sleep to the rhythm of the war drums

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons

I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason

I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself

Swaying to the rhythm of the new world order and
Count the bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums

The grims are coming
The reapers are coming

Keep your head down, go to sleep, to the rhythm of a war drums

Stay with me
Safe in ignorance of
the evil ones
Hold you and protect you from the other ones
The evil ones
Don't love you,
Go back to sleep







Best Friend

For someone who once shed light on my dark life
For someone who once held my shattered body
For someone who once leaked life into my dead corpse
For someone who once talked about forgiveness
For someone who once left me weak at the knees
For someone who once gave me faith
For someone who once filled my life with joy
For someone who once wiped away my tears

From someone who once had a dark life
From someone who once had a shattered body
From someone who once had no life inside
From someone who always required your forgiveness
From someone who was left weak from your touch
From someone who never had joy in his life
From someone who always cried
From someone who wanted to die
Until I met you.

[<~Darkshadow~>]

Payback

That’s it I’ve had enough,
**** you and your false little world.
I’m commin back and I’ve got my eye on you,
playing with my fire is going to get your ass burnt.
****in little pretentious ***** kid,
**** you and all your god-damn lies.

I'm fuelling rage and I'm coming to get you,
messing with me is like playing with the devil.
Your ass went way over the line this time,
time to pay we're gonna play my way.
Change the rules so you can't run this time,
you ****ty little punk kid your ass is mine.

Run away and try to hide,
I will find you.
You've stolen away everything else in which I love,
now its time for me to take back what you took from me.
Pave the way for the warriors of my army,
we're gonna **** things up on your ass you see.

I'm commin back with a vengeance,
and this time I will win.
Pissed off and marking my territory,
watch out cause I'll beat you like the screaming little ***** that you are.

If you think your gonna get away with manipulation,
lies, and torture you best to think again.
I was let loose from my cage
and I’m gonna run like an out of control freight train.
I am gonna tear through your ass like a rabid dog,
no place to run, no time to cry
your mine and Its time to feel all the pain.
Pain in which you have inflicted upon me,
And everything I believe in.

Payback time, *****,
Here it all comes back to you,
are you ready?
Take your due and then suffer in misery that
We have all gone through cause of your cheap little
lies and torture you chicken **** little fool,
I hope you burn in hell when I’m done with you.









Look at Me…

Missing you would be an understatement of what I feel
It’s crazy how my feelings get so charged when I’m around you
Yet you’ll never really know how I really feel
Cause I don’t think you see
The feelings reflected right out
The feelings I opened my heart to show you

Look at me now

Don’t turn your back towards me
I challenge you
To stare right back into my eyes
and turn this love
Into a two way thing
I don’t want to be walking in a one-way street alone

Look at me now

Now I’m lost like a sheep
Not found
You are the shepherd
Who could guide me out of this tunnel
And save me from the pain that I live in

I know I’m no phoenix
But still I think of you today, tomorrow and everyday
Give me a reason to forget about it
Give me a reason to hold on longer
You are the only one who can make me stronger.














Losing Touch

Losing touch,
With what I see
Losing touch,
With what is me

I can’t feel,
And I can’t breathe
Drowning in,
My disbelief

The sun feels cold, On my bare skin
Lairs of numbness, Drown me in
So I can’t run, And I can’t fly
I can’t live, But I wont die

Water moves, Against my face
Wakes me from, This wicked place
I lay there cold, dark and wet
Writhing in my, Keepers net

I can’t get loose, I can’t break free
I’m losing touch, with what is me
I want to know, The way it feels
To not be numb, And just be real



















Loneliness


Rainy day, Dismal and gray
And all I can do, Is hear you say
You love me
From so far away.

Now I miss you more than ever
I hold it deep inside
But missing you right now
Is the longest, hardest fight

I only wish we could be together
Everyday
I wish that there was a way
To cure the pain and end the fight

I know this is stupid
But I promise its true
I feel like nothing
Without you

I’m always lonely
I’m never free
Please let happiness
Find it’s way to me

The only thing that I can do
Is sit here and wait for you
The only thing that I can say
Is that I want you here, here to stay

[<~Darkshadow~>]

So Beautiful

So beautiful,
your body
So beautiful,
your eyes
So beautiful,
your smile
I wish that you were mine...

Everytime I see you,
I can't help but fall to my knees
Everytime I hear your voice,
I get all tingly inside

Everything about you,
is so perfect in every way
You are anything and everything I could ever want
I wish that you were mine...

So beautiful,
your body
So beautiful,
your eyes
So beautiful,
your smile
I wish that you were mine

I love you,
I love you more than anything
I love you more than everything
I wish that you were mine...

So beautiful,
your body
So beautiful,
your eyes
So beautiful,
your smile
I wish that you were mine...





My Living Hell

Here I am,
My Living Hell
Welcome,
Come and hear the bells

Why does it have to be this way?
How Have I made it to this day?
Is there something keeping me here?
Or is it death that is drawing near?

I sit here....
I take my last breath,
I sit here....
Now I shall lay myself to rest

Here I am,
My Living Hell
Welcome,
Come and hear the bells

Why do people treat me like this?
Am I heading closer to eternal bliss?
Why do I choose to hang on longer?
I need help to make me stronger

You used to be there,
Whenever I needed you...
You used to listen,
What happened to you?

I love you now more than ever,
but now you have no time to yourself
Now I have no time,
this is my Hell

I miss you terribly
But you still keep away from me
We used to talk all the time
Now you make it seem as if talking to me
Is a terrible crime

Here I am,
My Living Hell
Welcome,
Come and hear the bells






Forget This

I can’t belive,
You let this happen to me…
Never mind,
I let it happen to you…

Out of control,
There is nothing to gain…
Out of mind,
There is nothing to lose…

By the time,
I lose it…
I’m not afraid,
To chance everything just for you

But still,
You ignore me…
You pretend I was never there

So forget this
If you hate me then just go away
Forget This
You always make my sky turn grey

Sooner or Later,
You will realize…
That it is you that is causing me this pain

Sooner or Later,
You will find…
That you are the one,
Who is going blind

So forget this
If you hate me then just go away
Forget this
You always make my sky turn grey

[Nitrous]

Very good work once again.